So, my last entry followed the disappointment of our 4th failed IUI. We've bounced back pretty well and have moved on to the next plan which is In Vitro Fertilization. We're going to wait until next year in order to save up some of the money that is required (holy crap!) and a slower work load where taking time off is easier.
In the meantime, I am attempting to get even healthier and enjoy what I hope is the last phase of our childless marriage. That sounds dark, but I meant all of the good things I will leave behind, like sleeping in and having uninterrupted time and having warm feelings toward Tim because a child has not yet made everything harder.
I'm feeling really optimistic about IVF, and realizing that what was once the controversial "test tube baby" headline has become much more commonplace for couples now. I'm not saying it will be easy (it won't), but if/when it works, I have a feeling all of this frustration and disappointment will get washed away should it give me a healthy pregnancy.
And with this little bit of time, maybe I'll lose 10 more pounds, run a 5k, pay off some debt, save some money up and continue enjoying work with clients who inspire me to be a better person.
It seems strange now that I was so sad pregnancy didn't "just happen" for us. I'm a planner so, in a strange way, this isn't so bad. And, clearly, I've found a lot to keep me busy until my pee on a stick makes a plus sign show up.
I took a look at those who "follow" this blog, and I can't imagine a better group of people.
I hope that you are doing extraordinarily well and to hear/see you soon.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
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