Postponed

One of my previous blogs was about career and finances. Upon reflection, I realize a part of that was motivated by being in my early 30s and at a natural place to re-evaluate.

However, I also now know some of that was at least partially due to the anxiety produced by the cost of IVF. Apparently being a parent is expensive. This part just starts on the front end for us. Que sera sera.

I'm really good at not wanting things to be problems so I try not to give them any attention. The financial burden of this is a problem. Clearly I can't pretend it isn't. Through all of this I'm learning to let my best be good enough. We won't be able to have it all paid for before we do it. We can be as smart and conservative as possible and then will have to navigate the rest of it as we go. "Let go. Let God." (Thanks Al Anon)

In light of this, I am able to manipulate my benefits at work better if we wait until this summer rather than April as we had planned for IVF. Coming to terms with this was initially very difficult but what more can you do than come to a place of acceptance.

So, just a few more months. I never wanted to become a more patient person, but it seems as though the powers that be think it is important.

Love to you all.